Miski pole nii kuis näib ..

2012-02-13T19:13:00.001Z

Subhanna'Allah! Avastasin, et Eestis on lausa mošee ning väike Moslemite ringkond.

Otsisin ringi siin hiljuti, et kas Eestis halal liha on võimalik kuskilt osta või tellida, kuna me Sultaniga pole kumbki suur kala fänn oleks natuke lame Eestis olles ainult kala süüa. Pealegi, kui tahame pulmapeo korraldada, oleks ju ka vaja midagi rohkemat lauale panna. Nii ma siis googeldasin ja avastasin, et Tallinnas peaks olema halal restoraan, tahtsin selle restorani kontakt andmeid, et uurida, kust nad oma liha ostavad ning et kas ka mul oleks võimalik, seda tellida ning täitsa juhuslikult sattusin lehele www.islam.pri.ee kust lugesin, et Eestis on avatud mošee, kus antakse Islami loenguid ning araabia keele tunde. Seal lehel on nii palju toredaid asju, näiteks kirjutavad Eesti moslemid sinna oma loo, kuidas nad Islami leidsid, mis on jube tore lugeda ning sain enda loogi sinna saata, mille peale mulle öeldi, et see ilmutatakse nende veebi ajakirjas "Iqra" NEIL ON OMA AJAKIRI! I'm over excited man! Neil on Eesti keelseid raamatuid ka Islamist, millest ma kohe päris mitu oma Kobo'le kenasti laadisin. Kui keegi huvitatud on, siis need on päris tasuta ning lisaks sinna mošeesse tasub kindlasti kohale minna, sest ma nägin pilte näitustest, mis tunduvad jube huvitavad. Oeh, ma olen ikka täitsa rõõmupall hetkel.
Vähe sellest, et ma oma halal liha probleemi lahendatud sain tänu neile toredatele inimestele, lisaks veel kõik see. Veel üks pühjus, miks ma Eesti tulekut ei jõua nüüd ära oodata. Nii tore, nii tore.

2011-12-08T20:57:00.000Z

Never thought that I would face such idiots in the Uni! Thought this is a place for mature people but apparently I was wrong. Bare kindergarten crap going on there.

Maybe when I was a teenager I found it hilarious if someone came school drunk but c'moon, it's time to grow up. Guys in our school are still in that teenage stage. And not only do they come school, get drunk yeah, they bother everybody and drag more and more people into this sh!t. Once one of their FRIENDS got so drunk that he was throwing up and passed out at the hallway, them lot find it funny?! WTF?! What an idiot do you have to be. And then shouting all over the place that it ain't your fault because you didn't hold a bullet on his head. You know what, you probably didn't and he shouldn't have such a week boy to go along with it but you are his friend and if you get your friend drunk (whether its your fault or not) you take care of him and make sure he don't get into trouble. You don't laugh and spread the word that there's something to see at the main entrance. And at the end of the day if it wasn't for you lot he wouldn't have drank. Let's be honest here. Grown men and acting like bunch of brats I swear down. Just wanted do shout and slap all of them idiots. Hope they all get kicked out for this stupidity. And them guys who are normally pretty decent and yet still went a long with their bullshit.. you going to get some lecture tomorrow.

Damn, I'm so annoyed with them.

2011-12-06T22:22:00.000Z

People are not the same with one another, nor are their beliefs. If we don't understand someone it is probably because we haven't been in a similar situation. In that case we could always let the other side explain. We all have our reasons which could make sense to anybody who bothers to listen. Ignorance is never the key, it's not good to judge without a research and knowledge.
That being said, I wanted to talk about something what I kind of have an experience on and yet, still don't understand. Who knows maybe some one could explain. Or maybe someone could see my side of thinking.
A lot of people tend to make fun of religions and people who believe in God. So called 'atheists'. I used to be one myself when I was a teenager... well kind of. Anyway, I was thinking the other day that if you are an atheist, you don't believe in God, you don't believe that there is life after death, you don't believe that us humans have a purpose on this life and so on. So what do they believe in? What makes them get out of bed every morning and... live. The life is kind of dull, isn't it. As a child you spend your life in school trying to educate yourself and whole your adult life is spent on working. Okay, the weekends you get drunk, hang with your friends and have some fun but is that all in life? Don't they stop for a second and think if there's more in it. Don't they think of their purpose.
As I said before I used to be like that on a period in my life but I was constantly trying to figure out my purpose. I was always trying to find a reason on what I am doing. Quite often I didn't find the motivation to get out of the bed and do what everybody else do. Because if this life is all that there is then why do I bother? Why do I keep doing things I don't enjoy rather than just waste my life on 'having fun'.
Now as a religious person I feel that without it my life would be empty and I would be stuck in the a certain stage. Islam gives me a reason to live my life. And to live it in a good way, to do good, to try to be a good person because I know my deeds are taken into account and they don't stay hidden. To say thanks even if I feel that life is hard but to always believe in a better. Knowing that everything has a reason and an accident could lead to success. Always look and see the good things in my life, rather than getting lost in the bad. Islam gives me a reason to smile and knowledge that I'm not just a puppet born to die - I have a purpose!

Boyce Venue "We Found Love"

2011-12-02T14:48:00.001Z

Koolijüts.

2011-10-28T19:31:00.000+01:00

Oeh, nüüd hakkavad need kursusetööd ja asjad kuhjuma. Kuid kuna pole oma 3 aastat korralikult õpind (ja no kui korralikult enne sedagi õpitud sai), siis on kuidagi keeruline algust teha. Harjumise asi, tuleb end kooli ellu korralikult sisse elada järelikult. Tore on ikka :)

2011-10-01T20:01:00.000+01:00

Ashhadu an la ilaha ill Allah, wa ashhadu ana Muhammad ar-rasullallah! :)

Today I officially became a Muslimah!

2011-09-21T12:01:00.000+01:00

Lately, when I mention that I don't drink the reaction is pretty much like "WHAT? but WHYYY?!". Like it's a major sin not to. Hello, it's a good thing you morons! :D

Yes, if you are coming from the point that I used to love drinking and partying, I wouldn't say nothing. It's quite normal actually. I am surprised myself sometimes of the change I have made. But to ask 'why' like it's bad?

Well, my apologies. To be honest with you it don't taste good, I'd rather stick to some nice juice. It costs hell of a lot of money and, frankly, I'd rather spend that money on things I need and actually like. It does make you feel good for a time being (not always, though) but what comes in the morning or if you over drink is not that fascinating. I'm supposed to have fun when drunk but I'm not sure if I can call it fun if the next morning I feel too embarrassed. Getting links with guys in clubs ain't for me no more either.

Drinking is more bad to people than good. You can have your fun and then make 10 stupid mistakes to regret for years to come, yay!

Sorry, for being horrible and not drinking.. and I'm proud of myself!

Tyler Ward ft. Eppic & Alex G "Super Bass"

2011-09-16T10:15:00.000+01:00

2011-09-12T18:07:00.006+01:00

R.I.P. the 2,976 Americans that lost their lives on 9/11 and R.I.P. the 48,644 Afghanis, 1,690,903 Iraqis and 37,000 Pakistanis along the border that paid the ultimate price for a crime they did not commit.

p.s

2011-09-11T20:37:00.001+01:00

It just doesn't make sense to me how people can see all the signs, all the stories and all the facts. Hear all those things what have been said around them and yet not wonder whether there is an actual background, if it's true. How come they never ask questions? They never want to find out and see what's really going on. Never try to see outside of the box.
Blindly believe everything they used to believe and never change their ways, maybe because it's easier and more comfortable.
But as it's said some of us hearts are sealed and will always be sealed.

Maria Mena "Just Hold Me"

2011-09-10T10:27:00.000+01:00

Hijab

2011-08-16T00:08:00.001+01:00

Many people, well most of the people I know, see Hijab as something that is used to oppress or control women in Islam. They think that Hijab is something forced on women by men and that it's taking away their freedom. To be very honest, that is what I used to believe as well. Even when learning about Islam I never thought I would wear Hijab but now I'm thinking "why not?".
If you'd ever ask a Muslim woman why do they wear it, I don't think that any of them would answer that their man is forcing them. There probably is women who do it by force. But the real Muslimahs who really love Islam would actually FIGHT their man to wear it. I mean, if their husband would tell them not to, they would still wear it. In that case, how is it controlling them, how is it oppressing them?
The problem is that people don't try to understand it and they don't like their own society and ideas to be criticised.
If you thin about it, isn't fashion actually controlling us. Telling us what to wear. Making us pay a fortune on new season clothes. Making us feeling concious if we dare to go out with clothes out of fashion. Wearing clothes we don't feel comfortable in because they are too tight, or show too much when we sit down, shoes which make us cry because they are so painful to wear and way too high. Wear make-up, lots of make up, to look pretty. Making our appearance so important!
After spending so much energy on how we look, we ask people to see us for who we are inside, not outside.
How is that freedom? We are all controlled by men who make fashion happen. We eat from their hand and think we are independent, free women.
Wearing a Hijab is not only about covering your hair with a scarf but to dress modestly. In that way, can other see how much money you have? Can they be blinded by your beauty? These distractions are taken away, so there is nothing left but to see you for YOU. People can judge you for your personality and what you do, not for how you look.
And yes, a Muslimah should show their beauty for their husbands only. Why? But why would you want to look attractive to anybody else but your husband? That is the only person who should matter.
I personally feel uncomfortable when random people on street try to chat me up, stare at me or make sleazy comments. Plus, I know so many girls who say that they would like a man like them for their personality rather than their looks only. Because beauty is not forever, and liking someone for their appearance is shallow, isn't it. But why do you make it so easy for people to see your looks before your heart.
Hijab has so much more to it than just covering your hair! It gives a woman so much more freedom than fashion ever could. It also teaches us discipline.

Even though, I don't wear a Hijab myself yet, Inshalla I will start soon! :)

2011-08-12T22:16:00.003+01:00

Simply tired. How much more can a lil' gal like me take.

2011-08-11T16:49:00.000+01:00

You say that you love rain,

but you open your umbrella when it rains.

You say that you love the sun,

but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines.

You say that you love the wind,

but you close your windows when the wind blows.

This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.

- William Shakespeare

Ramadan - fasting & health.

2011-08-09T21:42:00.002+01:00

Most Submitters (Muslims) do not fast because of medical benefits but because it has been ordained to them in the Quran. The medical benefits of fasting are as a result of fasting.

Fasting in general has been used in medicine for medical reasons including weight management, for rest of the digestive tract and for lowering lipids. There are many adverse effects of total fasting as well as so-called crash diets. Islamic fasting is different from such diet plans because in Ramadan fasting, there is no malnutrition or inadequate calorie intake. The caloric intake of Muslims during Ramadan is at or slightly below the national requirement guidelines. In addition, the fasting in Ramadan is voluntarily taken and is not a prescribed imposition from the physician.

Ramadan is a month of self-regulation and self-training, with the hope that this training will last beyond the end of Ramadan. If the lessons learned during Ramadan, whether in terms of dietary intake or righteousness, are carried on after Ramadan, it is beneficial for one’s entire life. Moreover, the type of food taken during Ramadan does not have any selective criteria of crash diets such as those which are protein only or fruit only type diets. Everything that is permissible is taken in moderate quantities.

The only difference between Ramadan and total fasting is the timing of the food; during Ramadan, we basically miss lunch and take an early breakfast and do not eat until dusk. Abstinence from water during this period is not bad at all and in fact, it causes concentration of all fluids within the body, producing slight dehydration. The body has its own water conservation mechanism; in fact, it has been shown that slight dehydration and water conservation, at least in plant life, improve their longevity.

The physiological effect of fasting includes lower of blood sugar, lowering of cholesterol and lowering of the systolic blood pressure. In fact, Ramadan fasting would be an ideal recommendation for treatment of mild to moderate, stable, non-insulin diabetes, obesity and essential hypertension. In 1994 the first International Congress on "Health and Ramadan," held in Casablanca, entered 50 research papers from all over the world, from Muslim and non-Muslim researchers who have done extensive studies on the medical ethics of fasting. While improvement in many medical conditions was noted; however, in no way did fasting worsen any patients’ health or baseline medical condition. On the other hand, patients who are suffering from severe diseases, whether diabetes or coronary artery disease, kidney stones, etc., are exempt from fasting and should not try to fast.

There are psychological effects of fasting as well. There is a peace and tranquility for those who fast during the month of Ramadan. Personal hostility is at a minimum, and the crime rate decreases. ... This psychological improvement could be related to better stabilization of blood glucose during fasting as hypoglycemia after eating, aggravates behavior changes. ... Similarly, recitation of the Quran not only produces a tranquility of heart and mind, but improves the memory.

[2:185] Ramadan is the month during which the Quran was revealed, providing guidance for the people, clear teachings, and the statute book. Those of you who witness this month shall fast therein. Those who are ill or traveling may substitute the same number of other days. GOD wishes for you convenience, not hardship, that you may fulfill your obligations, and to glorify GOD for guiding you, and to express your appreciation.

Benefits of fasting:

The process of decomposing and eliminating waste toxic materials by means of Islamic fasting can improve or even cure the above mentioned diseases and other ones such as : cardiovascular and circulatory diseases, diseases of digestive system, diseases of the locomotor system including rheumatism, respiratory system diseases including asthma, and the early stage of malignant diseases like cancer.

1. 1) All mucus diseases such as colds, flu, asthma, hay fever, sinus and bronchial troubles are rapidly dissolved and eliminated from the body, leaving the user free from the varied allergies which cause difficult breathing and clogging of the sinus cavities…. I.E: My aunty used to be a patient that suffered from a severe asthma for 2 decades or 3. When she was over 50 she decided to observe the sunna fasting (every Monday and Thursday). As a result, she was thoroughly cured after a period of time.

2. 2) The types of diseases that are a result of calcium deposits in the joints, muscles, cells, and glands are readily dissolved and removed from the body. Cholesterol deposits in the arteries and veins also respond to the cleansing power of fasting (p13).

3. 3) Fasting can be used to normalize our weight. As our common sense says, weight reduction is achieved by fasting, along with other health benefits. There are many diet programs using an unbalanced diet that can be dangerous for our health. Fasting is a natural way to normalize our body weight.

4. 4) Fasting dissolves all unnecessary and unnatural fat deposits all over the body and the body is relieved of a tremendous burden.

5. 5) When we fast for a few days, the stomach shrinks to its normal size and the hungry feeling gradually fades away. When we go back to the normal diet, we won’t have exaggerated hunger and won’t overeat (Bragg & Bragg, 1999).

6. 6) Surprisingly enough, fasting programs can be used for underweight people who cannot gain weight even if they stuff themselves with many fattening foods. The cause of both overweight and underweight is a nutritionally unbalanced diet. “People are not nourished in proportion to amount of food they eat, but in proportion to how much they digest and assimilate” (Bragg & Bragg, 1999, p120). Thus what underweight people need is exactly what overweight people need revitalizing the digestive and assimilative systems to work efficiently.

7. 7) As metabolism is improved through fasting, the body recuperates the capability to assimilate proteins, fats, carbohydrates, starches, sugars, minerals, vitamins and all other essential nutrients necessary because all organs work properly after fasting.

8. 8) The human body uses the skin as a secondary eliminative organ. Because conditions such as boils, abscesses, carbuncles, and pimples are the body’s effort to eliminate poisons, skin problems also disappear as the rest of the body is cleansed (Burroughs, 1976).

9. 9) The stomach, intestines and colon are given a complete rest by the fast and are enabled to repair damaged structures. Piles, proctitis, colitis, appendicitis, enteritis, enteric fever (typhoid), gastritis, etc., speedily recover under the fast. The alimentary tract becomes practically free of bacteria during a fast. The small intestines become sterile.

10 10) It renew cells, in other words, those who fast look younger than those who don’t. Amazingly, when someone looks at the face of a 40-year-old Muslim woman who reared eight children, they might think she is under 30.

Obviously, this is due mainly to fasting.

Finally, fasting can help people to break addictions to harmful substances: tobacco, drugs, alcohol, tea, coffee, and other habit-forming beverages. Fasting leads our body to get rid of stored poisons, including addictive substances, and we lose our craving and tolerance for them. Thus after fasting we will feel nausea or sometimes have attacks of vomiting, “nature’s purge” if taking addictive substances.

Paljud inimesed arvavad, et paastumine on tervisele kahjulik. See, mis ma siia lisasin on t6estatud aga teadlaste poolt. Not so bad after all! Lisaks v6in 8elda, et Koraanis poleks sellist asja, kui see meile kahjulik kuidagi moodi oleks.

2011-08-08T23:05:00.003+01:00

London has lost its mind!!!

..and the rest of the UK follows.

2011-08-06T22:42:00.001+01:00

This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, somg go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babve, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up becuase if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about."

- Marilyn Monroe

2011-08-06T22:40:00.001+01:00

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect girls don’t exist, but there’s always one that is perfect for you"

"The winds that sometimes take something we love, are the same that bring us something we learn to love. Therefore we should not cry about something that was taken from us, but, yes, love what we have been given. Because what is really ours is never gone forever."

- Bob Marley

Demi Lovato "Skyscraper"

2011-08-03T21:16:00.000+01:00

Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching tear drops in my hands
Only silence, as it's ending
Like we never had a chance

Do you have to make me feel like
There's nothing left of me?

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

As the smoke clears, I awaken
and untangle you from me
Would it make you, feel better
to watch me while I bleed?

All my windows still are broken
But I'm standing on my feet

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

Go run, run, run
I'm gonna stay right here, watch you disappear
Yea--ohh
Go run, run, run
Yeah, it's a long way down
But I am closer to the clouds up here

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Ohh Ohhhh!
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper

Katy B "Easy Please Me"

2011-08-03T21:13:00.000+01:00

Standing at the bar with my friend Olivia
We were trying our best to catch up
That's when he walked over, said I'd like to get to know you
But all I could say was, look, I'm sorry love
You see, I've had difficulties too many times before
And right now it's not really my thing
He said just give me two minutes of your time
And tell me would you like me to be your friend

It's not that easy, it's not that easy
These days can't find a man to please me
Their lines are far too cheesy
No boy is on a level, believe me
No boy is on a level, believe me
These days can't find a man to please me
No boy is on a level, believe me
These days can't find a man to please me

You don't have to have a lot of money,
All you got to have is fire burning deep in your soul
If you have a dream for something that you love
I'll support you, yeah I'll play my role
Now I won't call you twenty times a day
'Cause I've got my own shit to do
When you see my name flashing on your phone
I want you to feel butterflies coming on through

It's not that easy, it's not that easy
These days can't find a man to please me
Their lines are far too cheesy
No boy is on a level, believe me
No boy is on a level, believe me
These days can't find a man to please me
No boy is on a level, believe me
These days can't find a man to please me

Now one thing I can't stand is arrogance
There's no way that we would ever get along
But one thing I love is confidence
And humility to know when you've been wrong
Now I love a bad boy mentality
But I don't want to be visiting no jail
Just know if there's someone out there mocking me
Be my gangster when it's time to get real

It's not that easy, it's not that easy
These days can't find a man to please me
Their lines are far too cheesy
No boy is on a level, believe me
No boy is on a level, believe me
These days can't find a man to please me, no
Oh these days I can't find my, my easy please me

* * *

Just likin' the lyrics and vid :)

2011-07-15T15:08:00.000+01:00

Different people's reaction to something they really like (think something is beautiful):
British: "Wow, this is BEAUTIFULLLLL!"
Italian: "This is very very very VERY B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L!!!!!!!!!!!"
Estonian: "It's nice"

Tehee, tuli meelde :D

2011-07-05T23:16:00.000+01:00

Bahabek men galby! :)

Chris Brown ft. Benny Benassi "Beautiful People"

2011-07-05T15:16:00.003+01:00

2011-07-05T15:14:00.002+01:00

Eemal olemine on vist kõige parem silmade avaja. Või on lihtsalt aeg meid muutnud? Natuke mõlemat, ma arvan.

Lupe Fiasco "Words I Never Said"

2011-06-22T14:27:00.001+01:00

It’s so loud Inside my head
With words that I should have said!
As I drown in my regrets
I can’t take back the words I never said
I can’t take back the words I never said

I really think the war on terror is a bunch of bullshit
Just a poor excuse for you to use up all your bullets
How much money does it take to really make a full clip
9/11 building 7 did they really pull it
Uhh, And a bunch of other cover ups
Your childs future was the first to go with budget cuts
If you think that hurts then, wait here comes the uppercut
The school was garbage in the first place, that's on the up and up
Keep you at the bottom but tease you with the uppercrust
You get it then they move it so you never keeping up enough
If you turn on TV all you see’s a bunch of “what the fucks”
Dude is dating so and so blabbering bout such and such
And that ain't Jersey Shore, homie that's the news
And these the same people that supposed to be telling us the truth
Limbaugh is a racist, Glenn Beck is a racist
Gaza strip was getting bombed, Obama didn’t say shit
That's why I ain't vote for him, next one either
I’ma part of the problem, my problem is I’m peaceful
And I believe in the people.

It’s so loud inside my head
With words that I should have said!
As I drown in my regrets
I can’t take back the words I never said
I can’t take back the words I never said

Now you can say it ain't our fault if we never heard it
But if we know better than we probably deserve it
Jihad is not a holy war, wheres that in the worship?
Murdering is not Islam!
And you are not observant
And you are not a muslim
Israel don’t take my side cause look how far you’ve pushed them
Walk with me into the ghetto, this where all the Kush went
Complain about the liquor store but what you drinking liquor for?
Complain about the gloom but when’d you pick a broom up?
Just listening to Pac ain't gone make it stop
A rebel in your thoughts, ain't gon make it halt
If you don’t become an actor you’ll never be a factor
Pills with million side effects
Take em when the pains felt
Wash them down with Diet soda!
Killin off your brain cells
Crooked banks around the World
Would gladly give a loan today
So if you ever miss a payment
They can take your home away!

It’s so loud inside my head
With words that I should have said!
As I drown in my regrets
I can’t take back the words I never said, never said
I can’t take back the words I never said

I think that all the silence is worse than all the violence
Fear is such a weak emotion that's why I despise it
We scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth
So scared of what you think of me, I’m scared of even telling you
Sometimes I’m like the only person I feel safe to tell it to
I’m locked inside a cell in me, I know that there’s a jail in you
Consider this your bailing out, so take a breath, inhale a few
My screams is finally getting free, my thoughts is finally yelling through

It’s so loud Inside my head
With words that I should have said!
As I drown in my regrets
I can’t take back the words I never said

Home sick..

2011-06-22T12:49:00.001+01:00

I used to say that I don't get homesick, I just don't. Well, I was in denial.
I miss home, I miss my family - my Mum, my Dad, my Brother, my Cat!!! Because I love them and sometimes I feel sad that I can't see them when ever I feel like.

Tyler Ward "The Rescue"

2011-06-22T12:45:00.001+01:00

This beats any video on MTV for sure ;)

Andrew Gracia "Crazy"

2011-06-16T21:46:00.000+01:00

2011-06-11T21:01:00.001+01:00

T. A. says
jama jah...tal nagu mingi haige mäng et peab kasvama ja kasvama....haige mees
T. A. says
rahunegu maha

Hihi, jah Risto, rahune maha oma kasvamisega :D :)

2011-06-04T18:23:00.002+01:00

"Since we all came from a women, got our name from a women, and our game from a women. I wonder why we take from women, why we rape our women, do we hate our women? I think its time we killed for our women, be real to our women, try to heal our women, cus if we dont we'll have a race of babies that will hate the ladies, who make the babies. And since a man can't make one he has no right to tell a women when and where to create one"
— Tupac Shakur

2011-05-07T21:46:00.003+01:00

I'm happy that after the year we've been together it still feels like we're one of those fresh couples who are sooo in love (I do know that a year ain't all that long but it is enough time for lots of couples to loose their 'spark'). I'm happy that I don't see myself with no one but you. And I'm happy that I still want the whole world to know that you are mine. I can hug you, put my hand around you or simply hold your hand on the street. Kiss you just because I missed the softness of your lips (after every 10 seconds). I'm happy that sitting on a couch we're always cuddled up in one corner no matter how much room we have. And we wouldn't sit on separate couches because that is simply too far. I'm happy that you still look at me like I'm the most gorgeous girl in the whole wide world and you can't believe you got me. I'm happy that you still make them butterflies in my tummy go wild. I'm happy that every time we see each other it makes our day and we keep hugging for ages even though we haven't seen each other for few hours only. I'm happy that your hug feels like the best, safest and softest place on earth. And I'm happy that when we fight it feels like the whole world crushed down on us and we feel so alone, helpless because that makes us forget about our stupid fight and stubborness and make up. I'm happy that I can't see my life without you in it. That the love I feel for you still keeps growing.

And I can't say how happy I am because I know you feel the same.

Quik catch-up.

2011-04-21T18:34:00.001+01:00

L6puks, peale pikka vingumist ja n2rvide n*ssimist sai t88koht pikalt saadetud. Isegi kui mind igap2evsaelt ymber veenda yritati, j2in ikka endale kindlaks. Nyyd vaid pean j2rgmine n2dal kaks korda sinna n2gu n2itama ja jumalaaga nendega. Te ei kujuta ette kui hea tunne see on. See polnud lihtsalt normaalne, mis seal toimus. Ega sealt ilma asjata k6ik peale 1te kuud minema ei lasnud, ning mina olin ainuke loll, kes seal pysis. Muidugi seda ei hinnata v6i ei austata. Ma sain ikka topelt koguses peavalu. Ja nagu ylemusest veel v2he oleks olnud, siis yks tont otsustas tihti peale, et kui tal on paha tuju, peab k6igil vell halvem tuju olema. Normaalne kui lampi su peale karjutakse.. selle eest, et palud inimesel oma t88d teha pmtslt :D .. crazytown, I'm tellin u.

Igatahes, mul on uus t88! Juba teine p2ev oli t2na :) Palk on kehvem ja blabla, aga seltskond on nagu miljoneid kordi parem. Kuigi ma pole veel 100% kindel, et ma ka sinna j22n, aga siiski. Peale lahkumis avalduse andmist tunnen ma end p2ev p2evalt paremini, juba nagu p2ris inimese tunne on.

Jah, tore tore tore on.

P.s sorry numbrite ja yyy'de p2rast, mul pole t2pi t2hti selles arvtuis :S:D N2eb v2lja nagu mingi pubekas oleks trykkind :D ..

Robin Thicke "Lost Without U"

2011-03-21T22:42:00.003Z

"Lost Without U"

Im lost without u
Cant help myself
How does it feel
2 know that I love u baby

Tell me how u love me more
And how u think Im sexy baby
That u dont want nobody else
U dont want this guy u dont want that guy u wanna
Touch yourself when u see me
Tell me how u love my body
And how I make u feel baby
U wanna roll with me u wanna hold with me
U wanna stay warm and get out of the cold with me
I just love 2 hear u say it
It makes a man feel good baby
Tell me u depend on me
I need 2 hear it

Im lost without u
Cant help myself
How does it feel
2 know that I love u baby

Baby youre the perfect shape
Baby youre the perfect weight
Treat me like my birthday
I want it this way I want it that way I want it
Tell me u dont want me 2 stop
Tell me it would break your heart
That u love me and all my dirty
U wanna roll with me u wanna hold with me
U wanna make fires and get Norwegian wood with me
I just love 2 hear u say it
It makes a man feel good baby

Im lost without u
Cant help myself
How does it feel
2 know that I love u baby

Sad Princess :D

2011-03-04T22:31:00.002Z

"My prince go to DisneyWorld. He's staying there. Playing around. Going on a spinning wheel. I can't see him to save me anymore. I can't"

2011-03-01T12:13:00.001Z

Ongi Eestis käidud.. täna lähen kodo tagasi.

Oli tore.
Tsau!

:D

2011-02-17T21:22:00.002Z

Plaanide muutus.
Olen Eestis 23.02 kuni 1.03 ainult.

Damian Marley ft. Nas "Patience"

2011-02-14T22:45:00.000Z

'Millegi p2rast' on video juutuubist kadunud, aga egas vist paljud sellele pihta nii kui nii ei saaks. Las olla siis lauluke lihtsalt.

The Pretty Reckless "Just Tonight"

2011-02-06T22:30:00.001Z

2011-01-20T16:29:00.002Z

Esimene aasta sai täna :)

2011-01-12T16:45:00.001Z

Ma pole eriti suure egoga ja olen koguaeg teadnud, et mul ei ole palju sõpru, keda ma väga kotiksin. Mis siis, nii on. Natuke kurb on küll nüüd avastada, kuidas needki, keda oma sõpradeks pean ja eeldasin, et ma neile korda lähen, sulle selja keeravad ning igat su sammu kritiseerivad selle asemel, et toetada või isegi aega võtta, et mõista või midagi. Kahju, aga mis seal ikka.

Ma olen ikka õnnelik, isegi kui mul sõpru pole :D .. sest mul on hooliv pere ja hooliv mees ja elu on lill, ha in ur face! :D

Jamie Cullum "Please don't stop the music"

2011-01-11T18:38:00.002Z

mm, I love Jamie's voice!!!

B.o.B. "Watchers"

2011-01-11T15:22:00.001Z

Genialistid "Leekiv Armastus"

2011-01-06T21:43:00.004Z

Võin mängida sinuga saunas
võin lebada sinuga teki all
oled Floora või oled Faunas
pole tähtis, oled tõele nii lähedal

Võin kukkuda just nagu kivi
võin diktoriks hakata ETV-s
Palun ütle mis on sinu nimi
mina olen mees

Ma ei löö sind, sest ainult mina tean,
mis sul päriselt haiget teeb
Sa ei usu mind, kuidas ma su sisse näen
ja see ehk ongi hea või..

Võin olla päev läbi su kõrval
võin helistada kaubandus keskusest
võin kõõluda maailma serval
võime rääkida tühistest asjadest

Võin olla su mina ja teine
ma võin olla su akude laadija
ja võib-olla s hommiku eine
või kraadiklaas

Ma ei armasta sind, sest ainult mina tean,
kuidas see haiget teeb
Sa ei aimagi, mis minust sinu sisse jääb
ja see ehk ongi hea või..

2011-01-05T18:15:00.001Z

Mulle meeldis Timmy iga aastane new year resolution.. see oli midagi sellist, et lõpeta aasta parema inimesena ning suuremate saavutustega, kui eelnev aasta.

I might need to copy this one.

Ja siis..
See aasta Kätu lubab, et ta lõpuks vahetab töö millegi parema vastu!
Ja käib koolis ja teeb oma kolm eksamit ja kursusetöö ära, ha. Muid toredaid asju ka kindlasti ;)

Justin Timberland "Seniorita"

2011-01-02T21:45:00.003Z

Head muusikat tehti kunagi! :D

2011-01-02T21:43:00.001Z

Kätu jõulud olid ilusad ja armsad. Olime musiga kodus, tegime head ja paremat süüa, ta sõber käis külas ja kuuse all olid kingitused kaa. Kingituste varjamine ja salaja kuuse alla sokutaimne oli maru vahva. Öösel kell kolm ärkasin üles ja sättisin nad ilusti puu alla ning kui hommikul avastasin, et natule rohkem oli kingitusi, kui ma sinna panin, ehee.
Aastavahetus oli täis draama. Aga no vähemalt saime musiga Londonist välja ja nii edasi.
Naljakas on, kuidas osad inimesed on nii ahned, tänamatud ning endast mingil olematul põhjusel maru hästi arvavad.

Ja nüüd tagasi tööle ja ootame, kuni puhkusele saame :) .. see aasta on ju college juba varsti.

My cutey ! :D

2010-12-24T19:41:00.001Z

Häid jõule! :)

Sarah Connor "Be Thankful"

2010-12-20T21:12:00.002Z

Minu selle aasta jõululaul! ;)

Ellie Goulding "Your Song"

2010-12-10T21:10:00.003Z

It's a little bit funny
This feeling inside.
I'm not one of those who can
Easily hide.

I don't have much money
But boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where
We both could live.

So excuse me forgetting
But these things I do.
See I've forgotten if
They're green or they're blue.

Anyway the thing is...
What I really mean...
Yours are the sweetest eyes
I've ever seen.

And you can tell everybody
This is your song.
It maybe quite simple but
Now that it's done
I hope you don't mind (x2)
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is
Now you're in the world.

If I was a sculptor
But then again no.
Or a girl who makes potions in
A travelling show.
I know it's not much but
It's the best I can do.
My gift is my song and
This one's for you.

Oh... (x10)

And you can tell everybody
This is your song.
It maybe quite simple but
Now that it's done
I hope you don't mind (x2)
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is
Now you're in the world.

2010-12-08T21:26:00.000Z

Nii, nii rõõmus olen, sest nüüd on Richmondi plaan kindel ja koht on mulle seal olemas. Kogu aeg oli mõte, et ei ikka ei saa seda raha kokku õigeks ajaks või et tuleb midagi ette ja nii, aga nüüd on see ametlik ja koht on kinni makstud, dokument on rahakoti vahel ja mina olen sillas. Tean täiesti, et ma olen seda igas võimalikus kohas juba mainind, et see tehtud, aga no mis ma teha saan. I'm bloody excited!

2010-12-07T21:01:00.002Z

"You're only supposed kiss your wifey on the lips"
"BUT MUUUUUM, you ARE my wifeeeey!"

:DD
Niisama tuli meelde.

2010-12-02T19:25:00.000Z

Täna Kätu tööl ei käinud.
Hommikul ärkasin õigel ajal ning kodust väljusin ka õigel ajal.. isegi vara oli. Siuhuke energiline ja hea tuju oli, sest kõik oli nii nii ilus. Eile õhtul oli juba kõik jäine ja nii, aga hommikuks oli jälle pehme paks lumekiht maas. Jõudsin siis heas tujus rongijaama, mis minu üllatuseks oli tühi. What's going on?! Kui platformile jõudsin lugesin, et kõik ronigd on ära jäetud. Positiivne nagu ma olin, arvasin, et äkki sõidab siis seegi rong, mis ma siis võtan, kui hiljaks jään. Siis märkasin kirja, mis ütles, et vähemalt enne kella 10 pole ühtki rongi sealt jaamast oodata. Mitte ainult sealt jaamast, tervest mu übruskonnast.
Ülemus oli ilmselt ülivihane ja näost punane. Kuid mida sa teed, kui kuni kella üheni päeval ei sõitnud ükski rong. Bussid ei sõida nii või naa ning kuhu nad mind ikka viia saaksid, kesklinna siit elu sees üksi buss mind ei vea ning lähedal olevates rongi jaamades ka ühtki rongi ei sõitnud ning need bussid vist ei käiks nii kaugelegi. Taksojuhid (need vähesed, kes töötasid) naersid mulle näkku, kui küsisin, et kas nad Crodyoni sõidavad. "NO WAY" oli vastus.
Aga muidugi ei üritanud MINA piisavalt, sest mujalt, näiteks Kent'ist, said inimesed ju tööle mindud. Seda me muidugi ei arvesta ega mõista, et mitte terves Londonis pole üks ja sama rongi link. Mina olen see õnnetu, kes ealb just seal piirkonnas, kus ilmselt kõige rohkem lund on ning just meie piirkonna rongid olid need, mis ei sõitnud. Oleksin pidanud jooksma vist tööle, mis mul sellest transpordist.
No igatahes, kell üks päeval sain siis ronig (tegelikult pidin natuke enne 6-te hommikul seda tegema) ning olin juba poolel teel tööle (teekond on üsna pikk ja koosneb kolmest rongist :D) ja ülemus otsustas siis, et polegi mõtet siis üldse tulla. Aitäh! Täna õhtu pean teadma, mis homme saab, aga nali on selles, et ega eile õhtul ei öelnud mulle keegi, et hommikul rongid ei sõida.
Nüüd lugesin, et viiest inimesest kaks ei jõudnud täna tööle. Vahi nalja, ma polenudki ainuke.

2010-12-01T17:35:00.000Z

Hihii, mina võin ka lõpuks rõõmus olla, sest meile tuli ka lõpuks lumi maha. Mis sest, et see tähendab siin täielikku kaost. Eile koju tulles ma väga rõõmus ei olnud, aga no mida sa teed kui inglased nii saamatud on.
Täna vaatasin paaris kohas müüakse kuuski, hästi ilusad ja osad olid siukesed tillukesed, et mahkus meile ka koju. Muidu nagu ei plaanind, aga armas ju oleks. Mitte, et ma suuremas jõulumeeleolus oleks.. tööl on nad selle oma liiga varajaste jõululauludega juba ära nullind (jep, pikalt enne jõule :D), aga äkki kuusega tunnen end paremini.. :D
Aga varsti on aastavahetus ja siis me reisime Glasgow'i ja peale seda on juba eksam ja peale seda on juba college (fingers crossed). Exiting, so exiting. Ning siiiis tuleb juba puhkus ja Eesti reis. On mida oodata. Kõige rohkem ootan ma praegu, et ülemus oma puhkusele ära kobiks :D

xx

2010-11-23T15:31:00.001Z

K: "Thank you, I'm gonna disappear now. You will never see me again!"
D: "Yeah.. you are not gonna get far with £400"
D: "Look, it doesn't even fit there. MY wallet can fit £2000 in it."
K: "Mine as well if I put the money on my account!"

:D

Rihanna ft. Drake "What's My name"

2010-11-22T11:56:00.002Z

2010-11-15T22:59:00.006Z

SLOW DANCE
Have you ever watched kids

On a merry-go-round?

Or listened to the rain

Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic fight?

Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

Do you run through each day

On the fly?

When you ask 'How are you?'

Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done

Do you lie in your bed

With the next hundred chores

Running through your head?

You'd better slow down

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

Ever told your child,

We'll do it tomorrow?

And in your haste,

Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,

Let a good friendship die

Cause you never had time

To call and say,'Hi'

You'd better slow down.

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere

You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,

It is like an unopened gift....

Thrown away.

Life is not a race.

Do take it slower

Hear the music

Before the song is over.

See luuletus on kirjutatud vähihaige tüdruku poolt, kellel pole just kaua elada jäänud. Miks ma selle siia lisasin, on sest sellel luuletusel on liiga hea mõte ja väga paljud, kaasaarvatud mina, peaksid selle sõnumit kuulda võtma enne kui on liiga hilja.

Matt Cardle "Ever I Saw Your Face"

2010-11-10T21:33:00.003Z

The first time ever I saw your face,

I thought the sun rose in your eyes.

And the moon and the stars were the gift you gave

to the dark and the empty skies.

And the first time ever I lay with you

I felt your heart so close to mine.

First time ever I saw your face,

your face, your face, your face..

Lubage mitte üle saada! Ma armastan seda laulu just Matt'i esituses ja ma olen lihtsalt nii sillas, et ta taaskord seda laulu laulis ja seekord korralikult. Nii nii palju armastan tema häält :)

2010-11-06T20:47:00.001Z

http://raulpage.org/prints/1.shtml

Katy B "On A Mission"

2010-11-05T21:56:00.001Z

I'm kinda gettin' into British music. How come? I used to be such a hater.. lol.

2010-10-28T19:47:00.000+01:00

Ma siin vahepeal lugesin Paulo Coelho "Brida" ja "Winner Stands Alone" läbi.
"Brida" on väga Coelholik raamat seal oma määtsiku ja värgiga. Aga "Winner Stands Alone" oh-oh-ooo, on midagi hoopis muud. Selline reality-check nende unistavate raamatute seas, ütleks. Igatahes mulle meeldis. See paika panemine, et kuulsuste elu polegi nii ilus ja lilleline nagu näidatakse on muidugi üks asi, aga tegelikult on point milleski muus ja selle staaride sära tagant tuleb välja väike looke.. mis on väga Coelholik õppetund. Kokkuvõttes on ikkagi Coelholik raamat, ha! :D

Psüholoogia lainel.

2010-10-26T21:42:00.000+01:00

Reverse psychology :D

Olen niisama tubli ja õppin.

The Pretty Reckless "Island/Love The Way you Lie"

2010-10-08T20:28:00.002+01:00

The Pretty Reckless "Zombie"

2010-08-27T10:57:00.003+01:00

Love her..

2010-08-23T20:05:00.001+01:00

http://www.retronintendogames.com/

2010-08-11T22:14:00.000+01:00

I already don't like ramadan! (on its first day) lol.

-

Ma olen väike draamaqueen ikka vahel ja ei suuda oma emotsioone endale hoida, muidugi ei suuda ma ka asju ütlemata jätta, mida poleks vaja öelda.

"A Thousand Splendid Suns" by K. Hosseini

2010-08-11T22:10:00.000+01:00

MUST READ!

"The Kite Runner" by Khaled Hosseini.

2010-08-04T21:04:00.000+01:00

"There is only one sin, only one. And that is theft. Every other sin is a variation of theft.
When you kill a man, you steal a life. You steal his wife's right to a husband, rob his children of a father. When you tell a lie, you steal someone's right to a truth. When you cheat, you steal the right of fairness."

Jah, avastasin taas lugemis, üle pika aja. Tuttava soovitusel valisin selle raamatu ja ei pidanud pettuma. Kohe üldse mitte. I love love LOVE this book! Lugu on hea.. kurb, aga hea. Nagu raamatus öeldud, et kurvad lood teevadki häid raamatuid. Ja mulle meeldib kuidas see kirjanik kirjutab. Isegi neid seiku, kuis mingit reaalsed action'it ei ole, loed huviga ega suuda raamatut käest panna. Ega ei suutnudki - kodus, rongis, bussis, tööl, tänaval. Tööl oli selles mõttes hea lugeda, et päev läks palju kiiremini mööda.
Igatahes raamat on Afganistaanis sündinud poisist, kes isaga sõja ajal Ameerikasse põgeneb. Kuid oma lapsepõlves juhtus miski, mille tõttu ta täiskasvanuna peab Afganistaani tagasi pöörduma, et jälle "heaks saada".
Selle raamatu põhjal on film ka, kuid soovitan enne raamatut lugeda. Film pole eriti hea, kui aus olla, sest nii palju on asju vahele jäetud ja kokku pressitud, et film lühemaks teha. Näitlejad on ka suhteliselt kehvad, kui aus olla. Ning ma ei kujuta ette, kuidas need, kes raamatut eelnevalt lugenud pole, sellest filmist täielikult aru saaksid. Nagu ikka, raamat on parem, sest raamat on detailsem ja kõik on välja toodud, pealegi miski ei trumpa enda fantaasiat üle.
Soovitan seda raamatut soojalt, mul tõmbas mitmes kohas pisara silma.

"For you a thousand times over."

2010-07-20T23:28:00.001+01:00

Miks inimestele meeldib pigem kuulda kuidas teistel halvasti läheb kui et neil kõik hästi on.

Miks ei suudeta enda edu täielikult nautida teades, et teistel läheb ka hästi.

Kuhu jäi, et kui sina naerad, naeran mina ka. Või midagi sellist. See sõprus.. ja mitte ainult sõprus. Üldiselt võiks ju hea meel olla, kui kellegil hästi läheb, isegi, kui sul endal kehvema lood on.

Kadedus, mm

…

Beyoncé "Flaws And All"

2010-07-13T18:33:00.002+01:00

I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you

I'm a puzzle yes indeed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet, you see the picture clear as day

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love. . . mmmm

I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that

I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
And that's exactly what I mean

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love. . .you

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
You, you, you.

Tagasi Eestis :D

2010-07-05T21:43:00.000+01:00

Tehee, jõudsin vahepeal Hiiumaal käia ja puha. Hästi tore oli, no tegelt ka. Mis sest, et kõik koguaeg jube purjus olid. Oleks võind kauemaks sinna minna, aga näed sa ei saa ju nüüd.

Mõned pildid sai kah tehtud.. :)

Tahmanägu Ronni.. päikese käes ei tasu magama jääda :D

Nummi :D

Hiiu neiu sääred :D

Kohe näha kelle jalas püksid on!!!

Meres sai ka ujutud :)

Käts rebib mehi, yo :D

Turnisime veits. Margit aka Birx, emps ja mina.

Anyway, mulle meeldis. Teine kordki :) xx

Drake "Best I Ever Had"

2010-06-27T22:58:00.001+01:00

You know a lot of girls be thinkin' my songs are about them
This is not to get confused, this one's for you

Baby, you my everything, you all I ever wanted
We can do it real big, bigger than you ever done it
You be up on everything, other hoes ain't never on it
I want this forever, I swear I can spend whatever on it

'Cause she hold me down every time I hit her up
When I get right I promise that we gonna live it up
She make me beg for it till she give it up
And I say the same thing every single time

I say you the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had, I say you the fucking

Know you got a roommate, call me when it's no one there
Put the key under the mat, and you know I'll be over there
I'll be over there, shawty, I'll be over there
I'll be hitting all the spots that you ain't even know was there

Ha and you all ain't even have to ask twice
You can have my heart or we can share it like the last slice
Always felt like you was so accustomed to the fast life
Have a nigga thinking that he met you in a past life

Sweat pants, hair tied, chillin' with no make-up on
That's when you're the prettiest, I hope that you don't take it wrong
You don't even trip when friends say you ain't bringin' Drake along
You know that I'm working, I'll be there soon as I make it home

And she a patient in my waiting room
Never pay attention to them rumors and what they assume
And until them girls prove it
I'm the one they never get confused with

'Cause baby, you my everything, you all I ever wanted
We can do it real big, bigger than you ever done it
You be up on everything, other hoes ain't never on it
I want this forever, I swear I can spend whatever on it

'Cause she hold me down every time I hit her up
When I get right I promise that we gonna live it up
She make me beg for it till she give it up
And I say the same thing every single time

I say you the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had, I say you the fucking

Sex, love, pain, baby, I be on that tank shit
Buzz so big, I could probably sell a blank disk
When my album drop, bitches will buy it for the picture
And niggas will buy it too and claim they got it for they sister

Magazine, paper, girl, but money ain't the issue
They bring dinner to my room and ask me to initial
She call me the referee 'cause I be so official
My shirt ain't got no stripes but I can make your pussy whistle

Like the Andy Griffith theme song
And who told you to put them jeans on
Double cup love, you the one I lean on
Feeling for a fix then you should really get your fiend on

Yeah, just know my condo is the crack spot
Every single show she out there reppin' like a mascot
Get it from the back and make your fucking bra strap pop
All up in yo slot until the nigga hit the jackpot

Baby, you my everything, you all I ever wanted
We can do it real big, bigger than you ever done it
You be up on everything, other hoes ain't never on it
I want this forever, I swear I can spend whatever on it

'Cause she hold me down every time I hit her up
When I get right I promise that we gonna live it up
She make me beg for it till she give it up
And I say the same thing every single time

I say you the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had

I say you the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had

Uh, uh yeah, see this the type of joint
You got to dedicate to somebody
Just make sure they that special somebody
Young Money
Ya, ya, you know who you are, I got you

Drake vist meeldib veits.

2010-06-20T18:47:00.001+01:00

Viis päeva on läinud nagu viis kuud, ma ütlen. Nii jube igatsus on peale, et läheks hea meelega kohe tagasi. Kõige nõmedam ongi vist see, et päevad läbi suurt midagi pole teha, siis ju mõtled nii palju ja igastus on poole suurem.

Vähemalt saan see kolm nädalat ennast välja puhata.. suurt muud see puhkus ilmselt endaga ei too :D

2010-06-14T16:53:00.001+01:00

See on küll nunnu, et kuigi ma homme ära lähen, siis täna on mõnel ikka palju olulisemaid asju teha terve päev :(

Drake "Find Your Love"

2010-06-14T12:16:00.001+01:00

I'm more than just an option
Hey, Hey, Hey
Refuse to be forgotten
Hey, Hey, Hey
I took a chance with my heart
Hey, Hey, Hey
And I feel it taking over

[Chorus]
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I bet if I give all my love
Then nothings gonna tear us apart
I’m more than just a number
Hey, Hey, Hey
I doubt you’ll find another
Hey, Hey, Hey
So every single summer
Hey, Hey, Hey
I be the one that you remember

[Chorus]
And I better find your lovin
I better find your heart
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I bet if I give all my love,
Then nothings gonna tear us apart
It’s more than just a mission
Hey, Hey, Hey
You hear but you don’t listen
Hey, Hey, Hey
You better pay attention
Hey, Hey, Hey
And get what you been missing

[Chorus]
Too many times I’ve been wrong
I guess being right takes too long
I’m done waiting, theres nothing left to do
But give all I have to you and
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I better find your love and
I bet if I give all my love,
Then nothings gonna tear us apart
I bet if I give all my love,
Then nothings gonna tear us apart

2010-06-14T10:42:00.002+01:00

Nii, homme tulengi Eesdti. Ma ei tea, kuidas aeg juba seal maal on, aga näed sa - on lihtsalt.

Eile oli Emporios viimane päev. Ma väga loodan, et oli ja et ma leian kohe uue töö, kui tagasi tulen. Mõned valikud nagu on, loodame neist siis parimat. Ma olen tubli tüdruk, küll hakkama saan.

Muidugi my beloved Danni ütles, et see ei ole mu viimane päev, et ta ei taha minuta töötada seal ja ma pean tagasi minema :D .. Ta ise on nõus seal töötama ainult kui Carminha tema tingimustega nõus on ning üks tingimus oleks, et ta peab minu tagasi võtma, haha. Tegelikult ei tahagi ma sinna tagasi minna, ainult natuke Danni pärast, sest ta mu lemmik mänedser siiski. Muidugi uuel tööl oleks kõik uus, kõik tuleb uuesti õppida ja ennast uuesti tõestada. Samas Emporios ma võin ennast tõestada palju tahan, ülemus kohtleb mind ikka nagu kõikki.. aga järelikult ta ikka saab aru, et mind sinna vaja on, kui ta isegi tahtis pakkuda varjanti, et ise mu tagasi tuleku pileti kinni maksab.

Jube meelitav on, et üks tüdruk, kes seal käib ütles, et minu tehtud kohvi on parim üldse. Mitte ainult meie kohvikus või Parison Greenis. Ha, talented!

Eile tõestati jälle mulle, et mul on ikka võrratud sõbrad. Sa võid nende jaoks teha, kui palju tahad, aga lõpp kokkuvõttes see kellelegi ei loe. Küsid väikest teenet ja isegi seda on neil raske teha. Samas mis ma ikka ootan, alati on nii olnud.

Kõige kurvem on siiski, et ma ei näe oma musit KOLM nädalat. See aeg, mis me nüüd koos oleme olnud, olen ma ilma temat vaid ühe või kaks ööd maganud. Nüüd tuleb neid tunduvalt rohkem ja kõik on järjest. Kuidas ma magama saan jääda öösiti, kui ma tema kaisus ei saa olla :( .. kolm nädalat, KOLM nädalat, kolm NÄDALAT, KOLM N Ä D A L A T.

Keegi laulab üleval häält lahti.

2010-06-12T18:06:00.001+01:00

Nädalavahetus ja Käts on kade nende üle, kes seda nautida saavad.

2010-06-09T18:38:00.001+01:00

Tundub nii imelik. Pole aimugi, mis valesti on või ei ole.

I'm scared..

2010-06-06T20:55:00.002+01:00

Nii, nädala pärast ongi Eesti tulek. Hullult tore on, et see tähendab, et ma saan töölt ära. Tegelikult juba teisipäevast ei pea ma oma ülemust nägema, mis on päris mõnus. Hullult tore on näga peret ja muid loomi, keda ma sajandeid näinud pole. Eks Londonist eemale saada on ka natuke hea.

Aga.. ma ei näe 3 nädalat oma kõige kõige paremat. Which is the saddddest sad ever.

Ginuwine "Touch Me"

2010-05-23T19:56:00.003+01:00

(Intro)
I lose my mind everytime you touch me
I can't control myself (when it comes to you)
HIT ME
I lose my mind everytime you touch me
I can't control myself

(Verse)
I love every single way that you look at me
There's somethin special in the way that you talk
Then I see that sexy style, something goes thru me (Yeahhh)
I think the greatest thing is watchin you walk
Wait a minute, let me go back and retrack what I said because...

(Chorus)
I lose my mind everytime you touch me
I can't control myself (when it comes to you)
Touchin Me (when you) x3
Touchin Me

(Verse)
I love it when you rub my hair when armrest out the chair
Or I let you hold my hand in the club
To let the chicks know you don't share (mmmhh)
Or in the middle of the night when we're naked
When you lyin next me
Even when I'm not in the mood, just the slightest touch from
Makes me go insane
Thats why I say...

(Chorus)
I lose my mind everytime you touch me
I can't control myself (when it comes to you)
Touchin Me (when you) x3
Touchin Me

(Hook)
Then there is no sunlight, you brighten my life
With every touch of your hand and it seems like
When things don't go right, you make it alright
If you just touch me again... Ooohh

(Chorus)
(I lose my mind)
I lose my mind everytime you touch me (Ooohh you touch me)
can't control myself (when it comes to you)
Touchin Me (when you) x3
Touchin Me

I lose my mind everytime you touch me (yeah...)
I can't control myself (when it comes to you)
Touchin Me (when you) x3
Touchin Me

2010-05-22T22:02:00.002+01:00

Humor me.

Ei väsi ka kunagi. Arva kes ühendust otsustas võtta. "igatseb mind" ja kelle orksi albumis on pildid minust. Mingi mind game I'd say. HAHA! UR A JOKE, MAN.. ur a joke.

2010-05-18T20:28:00.001+01:00

Oeh, milline peavalu ja segadus võib kõik olla. Vähemalt on mul minu-minu-minu-minu Sultan, kes kõik paha heaks teeb.

2010-05-16T18:50:00.002+01:00

Vahel tahaks minna tagasi aega, kus ma olin väike tüdruk, kes ei pidanud muretsema asjade pärast nagu töö ja raha.. ei pidanud muretsema söögi, maksude, arvete ega mitte millegi muu sellise üle, sest need tehti minu eest. Ja vahel mõtlen, et nii palju kergem oleks olnud Eesti jääda ning koolis käia teadmisega, et mul vanemate tugi alati olemas on. Rahalises mõttes. Muidugi mitte, et nad praegu mind ei toetaks, kui mul vaja oleks, aga see on teine asi siiski. Nii palju lihtsam oleks lihtsalt. Muidugi praegu seal olleks peaksin endale ilmselt poole kohaga töö muretsema jne, see oleks nagu asju samm-sammult võtmine, mitte lihtsalt üks hetk kõik endale kaela krabada.

Palju on igasuguseid asju, aga lõpp kokkuvõttes on ikka hea mõelda, et kõik, mis ma ostan, on ostetud mu enda raha eest, mis ma ise teenin. Ma ei pea kellegist sõltuma ja kellegilt raha paluma. Ma saan ise hakkama. Jah, vahest läbi raskuste ning kindlasti ei saa ma endale meeletult asju lubada, aga ma saan hakkama. Paremad ajad on ka kindlasti tulemas.

Aga oi kuidas võivad igasugu firmad närvi ajada. Eesotsas mu pank, kes mult mingi pool aastat raha on rottinud, kujutan ette, et see summa on päris suur praeguseks.

Ja siis see Virgin Media. Eksole panime neti korterisse, kõik oli ilus ja lilleline.. 20 naela kuus, aga peale seda, kui net sisse oli pandud, saadeti arve, kus seisis, et pean maksma 60 naela kuus. Väga tore. Ma ei kujuta ette, kuidas nad sellise vea tegid ja kurjaks ajasid ikka küll. Õnneks nüüd saime kõik lahendatud ja saime isegi parema pakkumise ning TV kanalite panemise eest me maksma ei pea :D

Viimased kuud ma olen vist nii elanud, et kõik, mis ma teenin ma kohe ka kulutan ja endale nagu ei saagi midagi. Küll asjad paika loksuvad, ma saan hakkama küll.

Eesti tulekuni on kõigest neli nädalat jäänud. Mu praeguses töö kohas vaid neli nädalat töötada jäänud. Nädala pärast annan lahkumis avalduse sisse. Muidugi ma ei saa kindlalt loota selle peale, et nad mind seal kolm nädalat hoiavad, sest teades mu ülemust, hakkab ta mulle ikka korralikult näkku panema. Vahet pole, mitte miski pole väärt seal edasi jäämist ning Carminha on viimane inimene, kelle pärast ma Eesti tuleku ära jätaksin. Ma lihtsalt ei saa talle seda anda mitte mingil moel. Ega ta seda ju ei hindaks või tänulik oleks, ta kohtleks mind täpselt sama halvast edasi.. isegi hullemini ilmselt, sest mida aeg edasi, seda hullemaks ta muutub. Paras talle, las ta vahetab oma töötajaid siis edasi iga nädal. Varsti pole tal enam mitte kedai, kellele loota. Kahju küll..

Ahh, ma ei jõua ära oodata seda, et ma kuu aega ei pea kell viis hommikul end üles ajama, haha. Ning terve elu vist ei pea enam Carminha nägu nägema ning tema häält kuulma. Appi, kui tore.

Cheryl Cole "Parachute"

2010-05-13T21:31:00.001+01:00

I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand
I don't tell anyone about the things that we have planned
I won't tell anybody
Won't tell anybody
They want to push me down
They want to see you fall (Down)

Won't tell anybody how you turn my world around
I won't tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound
I won't tell anybody
Won't tell anybody
They want to see us fall
They want to see us fall

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

Don't believe the things you tell yourself so late night and
You are your own worst enemy
You'll never win the fight
Just hold on to me
I'll hold on to you
It's you and me up against the world
It's you and me....(Love)

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I'll fall into you

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

2010-05-12T20:51:00.002+01:00

Nagu arvata oli, hakkab mu ülemus puhkuse suhtes näkku panema. Kuu aega on liiga pikk aeg ja et halb aeg ning liiga hilja ütlesin. Nagu varem ütlemine miskit muudaks.

Päris ausalt mind ei huvita. Ma annan lahkumis avalduse umbes kolm nädalat enne Eesti tulekut sisse ja kõik. Mis mul muud üle jääb. Nii või naa pidin tulema tulema sealt. Võib-olla muidu oleskingi edasi lükkama jäänud seda.

Huvitav tegelikult, mis ta selle peale ütleb. Ma olen viimane inimene, kes algusest peale on seal olnud. Las jääda siis.

2010-05-06T10:16:00.000+01:00

Aww :):):):):):):):):):):):)

2010-04-20T18:28:00.000+01:00

R.I.P Guru..

2010-04-18T21:46:00.001+01:00

Nüüd saan mina oma kodu kohe päris koduks pidada ja see on koht, kuhu ma alati suure hea meelega tulla tahan :)

2010-04-16T19:27:00.002+01:00

damn, world is a scary place. I know, sounds cheesy but.. fakk, kui palju asju on, millest paljudel aimugi pole. Nii sama ei tulekski selle k6ige peale. These people are stupid, blind and stupid. And they gon fuck us all up. Kas nad t6esti usuvad, et.. ahh, ma olen s6natu. It's too much man, too much.

6nneks on tarku inimesi.

Ja kuidas ma pole kuulnud, et Paulo Coelho raamatust "Veroonika otsustab surra" on film saanud?!

2010-04-14T16:38:00.002+01:00

Teehee! Eile said enamused asjad musi juurde ära saadetud, nüüd ilmselt pühapäevani tudun veel siin. Välja arvatud täna ja homme, sest mul vabad päevad. Ma juba kujutan ette neid ilusaid hommikuid, kui ma nii vara pean ärkama, et Norwood'ist Fulham'i poole seitsmeks jõuda. Mitte, et ma kunagi tegelikult õigel ajal tööle jõuaks.. nagu Danny juba nuttis, et nüüd ma jõuan heal juhul kaheksaks tööle.

Oioi, meil tuleb uus manager tööle homme, ma ei tea milline neist või on juba keegi teine, kelle Carminha valis. Loodan, et see gey-poiss. Mulle vist meeldivad geyd :D Aga keegi ei ole parem, kui minu Danny, keda ma nii nii nii niiiii palju igatsema hakkkan!!!!!!!!! No jah, aga küll mina ka seal minema tõmban varsti, varsti.

Nartsisside õitseaeg on läbi, kas nüüd on nagu suvi juba või? :D

2010-04-10T19:51:00.002+01:00

Okei, tööga sain siis ülelennu, mis on väga armas arvestades, et nad mulle ütlesid, et ma sain selle töö. Nüüd lihtsalt kadusid ära. Las siis olla, küll parema koha leian!

Praeguse töö kohta nii palju, et ma siin ikka ootan, et kuna ma oma payslip'i ja suuremas koguses raha saan, oleks nagu aeg. Ülemus on ikka tropp, üldse ei kannata teda. Tahaks niiii head aega öelda talle, aga jah.. olgu, kannatame ära.

Siis veel on mul nii tore pank, kes mult iga kuradi kuu raha husseldab. Täiesti haiged on nad, no nii kurjaks ajavad. Mingi oktoobris või novembris läks kaart nael miinustesse ja nemad nõuavad mult 75 naela. Okei, minu viga, aga miks nad selle raha alati siis maha võtavad, kui mul kontol piisavalt raha pole. Mis sest, et kirjas ütlevad muu kuupäeva ja nondel kuupäevadel mul on see raha seal.. hmm ei tea jah miks. Tropi karii! :S

Head ka. Otsustasime musiga, et järgmise nädala jooksul kolime tema manu ära. Koliks juba praegu, aga ma hakkasin ennast halvasti tundma, et ma praegusele landlord'ile üldse ette ei teata. Aega on, uus kodu eest ära ei jookse :)

bye bye xx

2010-04-04T15:14:00.001+01:00

Igatsen Golders Greeni.. :)

2010-04-02T18:23:00.002+01:00

No võib-olla oleks aeg oma armukadetsemisest üle saada. Ma teen tublit tööd ja üks kõik mida ma ei tee või mõtle, tegelikult ma ju tean, et ta ei ole ei Alex, Desmond ega mitte keegi muu.. :) aga vahest tuleb lihtsalt hirm peale, et mis saab, kui ma temast ilma jään. Kunagi ju ei tea, mis juhtuda võib. Ma ei ole kõige parem, ilusam ja toredam, mis siis, kui keegi parem ta teele satub. Mu armsad unenäod ka ei aita, aga see selleks. Tegelikult ma ju tean :)

Nii homme on kellegil uuele töökohale proovipäev ja me kõik koos loodame, et see hästi läheb, et ometigi Carminhast lahti saaksin. Exciting! :)

Oii, aga ülemus on mul normaalne küll. Peale poolt aastat otsustab siis tema, et hakkab makse maksma lõpuks, aga oskusi pole. Ei aja närvi, ei pane mind haigesse olukorda praegu. Isegi see ei aita, kui ma seletan talle mis ta valesti teeb. Kes siis mind usub. Võiks vähemalt kontrollidagi. Pole oluline, sest ilmselt järgmine nädal teeb keegi, kes asjast miskit teab mulle mu pay slip'i ja las Carminha siis maksab tagasi, mis ta praegu maksmata jätab.

Mis ta siis teeb, kui Daniel läinud on ja mina ka. Ainukesed lojaalsed töötajad, ainukesed, kes need 7 kuud on vastu pidanud, kellele ta alati on loota saanud. Kindlasti ta leiab uue mänedseri ja kohe veel kindlamini leiab ta uue barista vms.. kuid kui kauaks? Nädal, kaks? Oi, oi, sind, ise oled süüdi..

Danny't hakkan igatsema aint!!!!!!!!

Mingi töö leidmis hooaeg on - mina sain proovipäevale, Zin sai proovipäevale, Liisi sai juba töö.. :) .. tuleks Ismael'ile ja musile ka pöialt hoida!

Põhimõtteliselt, nahhui see Carminha oma kohvikuga. Las ta ajab mind närvi ja stressi. Aga kodus ootab mind alati keegi, kes mu kõik muu unustama paneb :) xx

Xavier Naidoo ft. RZA "I've Never Seen"

2010-03-31T20:22:00.003+01:00

[Intro: RZA]
You know they say
In every man's life, there comes a time
When he get struck by the arrow of Cupid
By the love of God, or the beauty of a woman
And sometimes this love, brings thunder into your life
And it brings the storm, sing about it

[Xavier Naidoo]
There is more to love than this
Love is more than just a kiss
Will we take it to that step?
Will we do more than just connect?
And will you bring the thunder in my life?
And the fire in my eyes?
'Cause then there, will be days of pleasure where
Everything far will be so near

[Hook: Xavier Naidoo (woman)]
I have never felt thunder (thunder)
And lighting (lightning) like this
I have never been struck by (struck by)
A wonder (a wonder) like this

[Xavier Naidoo]
There are days where I can stop talking about you
There days I can't stop saying your name
And I am looking for ways never to part from you, have
Everything changed and you still stay the same

[Chorus 4X: Xavier Naidoo]
I've never seen, and there's never been
Anything, with the beauty of you

[RZA]
Yo, yo, yo
Aiyo, shorty, I've never met someone so beautiful
From your hair follicle to your finger nail cuticle
Struck by the arrow of Cupid, this love is deep rooted
Like someone took my heart, sampled it and looped it
To a song that's endless, passion brings the tempest
I'll slay a thousand dragons to save my little princess
A walking gift from God, you are my shining star
The diamonds and gold that most men be mining for

[Xavier Naidoo]
Days that we share are like treasures
A treasure like fire is to mankind
My hands will try to carry you to ever
But since I've seen you, you've bright heaven to my mind

[Chorus 4X: Xavier Naidoo]
I've never seen, and there's never been
Anything, with the beauty of you

Shakira "Underneath Your Clothes"

2010-03-23T18:11:00.000Z

You're a song
Written by the hands of god
Don't get me wrong cause
This might sound to you a bit odd
But you own the place
Where all my thoughts go hiding
And right under your clothes
Is where I find them
Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey

Because of you
I forgot the smart ways to lie
Because of you
I'm running out of reasons to cry
When the friends are gone
When the party's over
We will still belong to each other

(Chorus)
Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey

I love you more than all that's on the planet
Movin' talkin' walkin' breathing
You know it's true
Oh baby it's so funny
You almost don't believe it
As every voice is hanging from the silence
Lamps are hanging from the celing
Like a lady to her good manners
I'm tied up to this feeling

Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey

2010-03-13T12:36:00.002Z

Tere, tere.

Kätlin avastas, et töö on tunduvalt vähem stressirohke, kui mul käed jalad tööd täis on. Viimastel päevadel olen meie delis töötanud kohviku asemel ja nüüd saan täiesti aru, miks Danny ütles, et talle seal rohkem meeldib olla. Koguaeg on mida teha. Pealegi, kui mina seal kõike ei tee, jäävad pooled asjad tegemata. Näiteks, kui ma pool tundi pidin väljas kaste. Lõhkuma, üsna tüütu, aga nagu näha oli, teistel oli pohhui ja Danny kaela oleks see kõik jäetud. Meeldiv üllatus talle puhkuselt tagasi tulles. Igatahes delis töötades pole isegi 12h tööpäev enam nii kohutav.
My beloved Danny on endiselt puhkusel, 19ndal tuleb tagasi. No ei jõua ära oodata. Ülemus on endiselt bitch ja tekitab palju stressi. Aga töö on töö ning kui ta mul kopa korralikult ette viskab, siis oii kuidas ma talle näkku hakkan panema.

Paar päeva tagasi sain oma inglis keele ja psühholoogia materjalid kätte, exiting. Ma pole neid jõudnud suurt uurida, sest. Koguaeg on töö ja Sultan tuleb iga kord väga ruttu minu manu. Ta enam ei põe, et äkki jõuab enne mind, sest tal nüüd päris oma võtti :D Anyway ma sain materjalid neljapäeval alles, so its not that bad.
Täna on Kätul silmaarsti juurde minek, prillid kukuvad ilmselt :D käisin juuksuris ka ja, uhke värk. Teen vaiksel need asjad ära nüüd enda jaoks, mida ma koguaeg plaaninud olen, aga kunagi viitsinud pole.
Superhuman olen ma these days anyway.. :D
Mule veel 2h tööl jäänud tänaseks ja siis prille saama ja vb saan Desiga kokku, et talle ta asjad anda. Eile oli bare naljakas, kui Sultan koju tuli, Desmondi kott õlal. :D ahh I miss my baby. Pole teda juba üle 4h näinud. :(

Tsau, tsau.. x

2010-03-08T19:09:00.001Z

Palun, palun, palun, palun ütle, et asjad pole nii nagu mul miski sees ütleb..

2010-02-21T19:45:00.002Z

Hellooooo, long time no see.

Tähendab having a bf is a full-time job. Ja siis veel on vaja Emporios ka ju töötada. Nii et ei saa pahaks panna, et ma ei kirjuta, joonista.

Nii, nüüd oleme siis Sultaniga umbes kuu aega koos olnud. Selle aja jooksul pole ta kordagi kodus maganud.. nagu elaks koos otsapidi. Pean ütlema, et ma pole kunagi lihtsalt nii rahul ja õnnelik ühegi suhtega olnud. ALATI on mingid teemad ja "what if..". Isegi suvel, kui ma Sultaniga olin. Tema poolelt oli kõik tip-top, aga minul olid igasugu issued. Enam pole midagi. Ma tean keda ma tahan, mida ma temalt tahan ja mul on see keegi olemas. Võib-olla oli see vahepealne 5 kuud aja raisk, aga võob-olla oli seda vaja, et mu loll pea ükskord märkaks, mis mul on ja, et see mees ei ole niisama. Rahul olen :)

ja Šotimaa plaanid jäid obviously sinna paika.

Tööl on jube hea hetkel.. ülemus on puhkusel. Stress-free life innit. Kuid lõbu kauaks pole, sest ta peab ju tagasi tulema. Kuid mitte see pole mu suurim mure. Mure on selles, et mänedser läheb ju peale seda puhkusele. HELL! Üks tsikkidest, kes meiega töötab, läheb tagasi Brasiiliasse.. ja hullumaja.
Praegu on tore põhitmõtteliselt, et siis ärme kurdame. Ja nagu Danny says: money, money, money. :D:D

Vahepeal sain ma endale sellise kavala idee, et niisama istumise, tööl käimise ja lollimaks jäämise asemel võiks ikkagi õppida midagi. Päris kooli jaoks mul rahast ja ajast napib, AGA juhtusin sellisele lehele, mis pakub kodudus õpet (või siis on õigem vist kaugõpe). No ja mingi ülimalt kallis ka pole. Teengi vist nii, et võtan sealt kaks kursust. Tuleb kindlasti hiljem kasuks. Päris ülikooli teemat ma valima ei hakanud, sest see siiski pisut kallis ja kui juba ülikool, siis ikka päris ülikool. Aga mõtlesin võtta A-leveli inglise keele ning psühholoogia kursused. Võib-olla ka õigusteaduse kursuse, aga ma vaatan, milliseid maksmis varjante mulle pakutakse, et liiga kalliks ei kisuks. At the end of the day isegi kui ma ei lähe psühholoogiat edasi õppima, annab see mulle plus punkte.. isegi töö leidmises. Pealegi on see aine mulle juba ammusest ajast huvi pakkunud. Miks siis mitte, ma arvan.

Mis seal muud ikka hetkel. Lähen edasi musit ootama.

xxx

Ray J "Can We Fall In Love"

2010-01-22T23:25:00.001Z

2010-01-22T23:05:00.002Z

Pole ammu miskit kirjutanud.

Peale jõule on tegelikult natuke juhtunud ju küll. Oli aastavahetus, kus ma lõpuks suutsin Kristil Sotimaal külas ära käia. Sinna oma jakki kaotada.. nii võrd kui võrd kaotada. Enne seda jõudis Alex teematada ja andis mulle valida, kas ei näe teda enam üldse või olen temaga koos. Pikad juhtmed on tal, sest valik oli juba enne tehtud. Siiani pole teda näinud ja kuulnud polnud ka miskit.. orkutis käis mind tihti tsekkimas ainult ja no eks ma siis pidin Sultaniga pildi üles panema. Ära vahetasin, siis tuli kohe kiri, et kas ma oma boyfriendiga juba lahus ja et see müts mulle ei sobivat, sest ma olen selle jaoks liiga valge. Nalja mees. Ta pole vist aru saanud, et stiilipuhastelt inimestel stiili suhtes nõu ei võeta :D

Vahepeal suutsin Desmondiga põhimõtteliselt koos olla, aga nüüd ma tabasin ära, et armastus on otsas. Ise ootas nii kaua..

Tööl on nii palju tore, et ma kohutavalt armastan oma mänedseri. Seda ei saa vist paljud öelda, aga vot mina saan, ha! Ta on lihtsalt liiga hull koomik. Kõige tähtsam tegelt on see, et ta mu eest alati välja astub, mitte ei poe ülemusele perse :) Hästi, hästi nunnukas on ta mul oma hullude hetketega.

Pidu pole eriti teinud. Aastavahetusel oli.. nüüd paar päeva tagasi käisime Mehmetitega joomas. Naljakas õhtu oli. Kõik olid Mehmetid peale kahe tüübi. Üks neist oli sakslane ja ma siis kohe, et ära muretse ma räägin saksa keelt ka: ICH LIEBE DICH ARCHSLOCH! :D Ühel Mehmetil on mu nimi elu lõpuni meeles vist, sest ma terve õhtu kontrollisin, et ta ikka teaks. Ta alati teadis, aga ma pidin ikka kontrollima. Endal ununes ta nimi ära vahe peal, aga mind aidati hädast välja. Liisi ja Britu kaabli saime teisele korrusele tagasi ja puha. Siukesed MägiAivarid pidime selleks olema kus juures.

Ja siis hästi armas ja tore ja nunnu on minu baby, honey, luv, sweety, darlin (etc) Sultan! Sest ta on lihtsalt nii armas, tore, nunnu ja hea.. :) x

Mis veel head.. ei tea, ei tea. Järgmine nädalavahetus peaks mul vaba olema. Wow, üle sajandi, kus MINUL nädalavahetus vaba.

Thts all.

Häid jõule!

2009-12-25T23:46:00.003Z

Mina see aasta hea laps ei olnud ja jõulukingi tegin endale ise. Pole oluline, hea kink on. Tegelikul ühe sain veel.. jõuluvana Abdulilt, armas. Verivorsti ja muud eestilaadset toitu sain ka süüa Liisi onu juures. Oli tore, isegi kuusk oli, mandariinid ka.
Homme näen võib-olla kedagi, keda väga kaua pole näinud, aga jubedalt näha tahaksin. Või kui ei, siis söön need kommid ära, mis talle mõeldud olid. Win win olukord, ey.